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16 April 2012 @ 06:07 pm
  • asahi
  • black & yellow
  • yellow table cloth
  • bee banner?
  • ping pong balls
  • 1ft littles paddle
  • 4ft bigs paddle
  • asahi logo
  • buffets (asahi, hometown, souplantation, etc.)
  • hot seat

A-Team: gold & blue

  • mickeys
  • dog tags
  • traditional sweaters
  • sleeping bags

BMF: black & red

  • patrone & new castle
  • rings (Tiffany necklaces) & pocket watches (replace with Burberry ties)
  • expensive sweaters
  • fuzzy blankets
  • boiling crab

Kwalia: purple (red)

  • ???? & dos equis
  • Chinatown blankets

Rancid: white (silver) & black

  • jack daniels & blue moon
  • RANCID in caps
  • yell it
  • garbage bags
  • shocker
02 February 2012 @ 01:32 am
I have become so negligent about money - I spend so needlessly.

I have become so negligent about my studies - I go out too much.

I feel sorrow - why can't I just buckle down and get it all done.

What have I become?
Current Mood: pensivepensive
15 December 2011 @ 12:27 am

Please read that before proceeding.

Honestly, boys are so confusing. I wish I were better at reading them. Or just not interested at all. I should just not be interested anymore. I feel so vulnerable in situations like this. Just got to move on.

Current Mood: melancholymelancholy
Current Music: Friends
11 December 2011 @ 05:31 am
i am pussy shit for all the crap i posted before.

that is all for now. (:
Current Mood: amusedamused
22 May 2011 @ 06:04 pm
 I swear, that is my favorite song right now.

Urgh. One would think that with less than a month left of school, I'd be more than happy to get the fuck out of here and go home.

... But honestly? I'm not. I'm going home for Memorial Weekend and I am dreading it greatly. I was suppose to be going back to visit family and my... ex-boyfriend, but then he had to go and break-up with me. Now i want nothing to do with the place. I don't know. I mean, I miss my family a lot, but just knowing that he is there is what makes me so apprehensive. Do I want to go back and struggle with inner demons? Or do I want to sit here and wait for something else to happen?

I'm so tired of being taken for granted and I'm tired of being the one who puts in all the work; however, I am also fearful. Fearful that if I don't make a move, I will lose him forever and that would hurt more than being trampled upon. The worst part is that I know I deserve better... but I can't help it. It's hard. I'm tired of talking about him with my friends - what's the point? He didn't put in as much effort as me.

My friends hate him. What do I do? I'm so lost.
Current Location: dorm room
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: Dear Daphne - Clara C
07 April 2011 @ 02:51 pm

 I feel like ever since I got back to this shit hole, I have been spiraling into a deeper and deeper depression. Little makes me happy. I am constantly in a bad mood and what doesn't help is that I have no one to turn to.

People in my goddamn hall find it funny to draw penis's on my shit. They find it funny to draw on other people's boards and label that I "heart" penis. I don't get why these people have a beef with me. I have done nothing to them at all. I hate them all.

I want to cry. But I don't at the same time. I want to laugh. My roommate is so carefree. She does not have a serious care in the world. She's too oblivious to real world situations because she's engulfed by her own. Appearance is key to her.

In fact, appearance is key to everyone here. This I don't understand. Who the hell are you trying to impress? And why? Why are all these people so fucking shallow. They're unable to look outside the box - that ultimately, it's personality that matters. It is how you act around a person that steals the deal. You could be the hottest girl in the world and still be the biggest bitch. That is my pet peeve.

Are these people so self-conscious that they're unable to shed their persona's to actually be who they are? Yes. And that's why they are sad and pathetic people. Consumed, no, devoured by the media that we constantly associate ourselves with today.

I'm so sick and tired of these people. All so fake. All liars.

But then again, i am a hypocrite. For I am just as fake as these posers. Fake until I'm able to weed out the few real from the fake. It's hard though. I've lost faith in belief. I was too ignorant before. I need to open my eyes. Clear my vision.

The worst part is, even after ranting I still don't feel good.
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
03 April 2011 @ 09:26 pm
 I could go on and on and on about how many flaws he has. How he doesn't even seem to care when I raise an objection. How he doesn't care that I am hurt every time he looks away. How he doesn't seem to notice that what he's doing is horribly wrong. How he continues to make the same excuse every single time.

I know he's busy, but he could at least try. I'm tired of carrying the weight.

He says he wants this - the question is, how much?

I wish that he would just come to realize that this isn't right. This isn't healthy. This isn't the way it is suppose to be.

But I guess it inevitably doesn't matter to him because he still seems to be blind to all that is occurring in front of him, even when I try to pry his eyes open.

I want to say I've had enough, but then where would I turn? He is my friend, my confident - someone I don't want to lose. Despite this, it seems that he will never change.

He will never mature. And for that, I am truly sorry for him.

There is nothing I can do for him anymore but sit, wait, and hope that one day, he will be able to open his eyes and see the damage that he's done. And hopefully, he won't be too afraid to fix it.

If he is... well, then I guess it's pointless to go on.
Current Location: dorm room
Current Mood: disappointeddisappointed
08 May 2010 @ 05:49 pm
I don't get how people can blog all the time. i mean, I never really have anything too important to blog about. I recall talking to some guy friends at school and they were asking me why and how girls found the time to blog ALL THE TIME. I was suprised that they would say that... 'cause I'm a girl and I don't blog all the time. Of course they shot me a skeptic look so i decided to humor them. "Girls like talking about their days, whether they be good or bad." Ohh snap.

So today, instead of talking about today, I will be talking about some things that happened in the past. For example, sometime during December, I was talking to my friends, Alan and Amir. Amir was complaining about how his black belt broke and how his pants would be saggy at our Winter Concert. Alan of course then offered his belt, only to bark with laughter that he was using his own. i, being the ever so nice person I am, offered my belt, only to laugh as well, exclaiming that I have (had?) no black belt. Unfortunately for me, the two stopped walking to stare at me before Amir rolled his eyes and said, "Andrea, the only belt that you'd fit is the Astroid Belt." Ouch! Hahaha.

Another story would be from yesterday actually. I was talking to my friend Jason, when my other friend, Crystal started yelling at me (inserting several curse words here and there) to go talk to her (we joke around like that a lot). I immediately told Jason to run while he could to save himself from her potty mouth, angering her even more. Oops. Well, he ran and she proceeded to yell at me some more, causing myself to laugh in delight. Finally, our band teacher came out of his office and was like, "Crystal, that's a lot of yelling your doing there. You're such a bad influence." And she shook her head and retorted, "No, I'm a good kid! See, one whole sentence without cussing. I'm great!" Then, I was like, "It's a Christmas miracle!" and Mr. Rodda was like, "Yeah, a Christmas Fucking miracle." HAHAH.

Okay, I'm done.
Current Location: my room
Current Mood: listlesslistless
Current Music: Can't Be Tamed - Miley Cyrus
03 May 2010 @ 12:06 am
i actually don't really know what to say besides... I'M EIGHTEEN. legit pedophile now. mmmm. HAHA. jk. that's disgusting, i would never do something like that.

anyways, i'm just here to waste time; i unfortunately have a formal essay due tomorrow. alas, if only i weren't a senior! then i would maybe start this on time... and maybe pigs fly. i think that i'm just too lazy. soooo bad. ):

idk if i wrote it already, but i got asked to prom - whoo!  - - - -  - - - - asked me. haha, i hope thats enough hints future self. (actually, i'll probably never look back at this post 'cause looking at my old posts make me cringe...)

OKAY. back to essay writing! i'm a good and diligent student. HAHA. i'm so good at making myself laugh. i'm PUNNY.
Current Location: my room
Current Mood: enthralledenthralled
Current Music: baby - justin beiber ft. ludacris
26 April 2010 @ 08:15 pm
i had an awesome-fabulous-terrific-fantastic-super-amazing day today! and that's not just 'cause... well i'll explain. ;D

today, i arrived to school with minutes to spare - much to my dismay, all the good parking spots were taken, leaving me no choice but to park in the 'rough' aka, the area with no lines for parking. and because we all know how well high schooler's park... well, i was lucky i made it out of there alive. haha.

i made it to first period, symphonic band, with a large smile on my face; nothing could go wrong! even if we had to play after a shitty performance on saturday! 

Current Location: my room
Current Mood: chipperchipper
Current Music: learn to fly - foo fighters